So I asked the boss for a pair of wire cutters tonight, which provoked quite the look from him. It was obvious he wanted to know what they were for when he said I was starting to scare him. (I think he was worried about the new equipment� but if I was a saboteur, I�d be smarter than to ask the boss for the tools with which to commit my heinous acts of destruction. ) So I told him that I wanted them to cut the fake plants we have out in the store- kids come by and pull the leaves off, so we had all these bare spines on the plants that looked really stupid. He gave them to me, and I went to work�

The look he gave me when I asked for the tools was nothing compared to the way our customers looked at me when they came in and saw me pruning the fake plants. I could tell they all thought I was completely insane. Oh well. I already know I�m a lunatic, I don�t need these people to tell me that.

I have once again resorted to the warm comfort of hot chocolate spiked with brandy to soothe my stressed-out psyche. I haven�t had one for a few weeks, and I just got my period again, I�m cramping and I feel so tired but having trouble sleeping. Plus the fact that work was like that Monty Python sketch with the cheese shop, and it was Land of The Living Dickweeds� to me, those things add up to deserving a little alcohol before bedtime. Alcohol is not the answer, it�s true� it won�t solve anything. BUT if it takes the edge off and allows me to rest so I can look at things fresh the next AM, well� then it�s a good thing. I�m willing to put to use any leverage I can get to mellow me out after the day I had. So long as it�s a lever and not a crutch, it�s all good.

Reading a medical thriller now, it�s mildly interesting but also kind of predictable. All of Cook�s novels are hospital conspiracies. There�s always some horrible medical game going on behind the scene, and people dying under mysterious circumstances, followed by missing/stolen body parts.

Don�t know what I�m going to do after I finish this book, though- I�ll be out of novels I haven�t read. I�ll go through literary withdrawl!